Drawing blank

I’ve been sitting in front of my screen for almost an hour now, staring at the cursor on my empty page. It happens now and again. Sometimes something really good can come out of the fear and panic a blank pace can stir in me. Because if my mind is equally blank, it is the ultimate challenge. Other times I just know it is one of the days when all my creativity has left the building and whatever I write will end up in one bin or another as trash.

 
I think the reason I’m drawing blank at the moment is because I’ve taken a step forward. I have found a new formula to my lyric-writing and now I’m trying a bit too hard to repeat the process. Sadly, I can’t find one single topic that feels right to write about in the easy flowing way I’ve just discovered. My old habit to complicate things isn’t yet broken.

 
At the same time, I’m annoyed with myself, because since my recent breakthrough I’ve noticed that I feel a bit ashamed over a lot of my old work which I was quite proud of only twelve months ago. This feeling is something I have to get past, because at that point in my life those lyrics were my best. I wrote to the best of my ability, and because I did my best I should not carry this feeling of shame around with me. Instead I should be grateful for my earlier work. Without all those lyrics I wouldn’t have had any kind of development. All my previous lyrics are steppingstones on my way to where I’m at now. If I’m lucky (in a not too far away future) where I’m at now will also become a steppingstone towards something better. This is why I have to get back to my sense of pride over my earlier work. They are a big part of me and I’m starting to learn that we all must value ourselves before we truly can value someone else. It’s not ego, it is a healthy mind.

 
Anyway, back to my blank page. Something I’ve done in the past, when I’ve struggled with topics is to ask friends to give me a word and then I’ve written a lyric around that word. Once I was given the word “Airport” by my good friend and collaborator Fredrik Holm. From this word a song lyric developed called “Starting from scratch once more”, which made the semi-finals in UKSC in 2016. Fredrik later wrote a melody to the lyrics and I will share both the lyrics and the demo with you today.

 
This is sadly my only blog this week, because during the night I’ve come down with a nasty cold that has placed itself in my ears, so I will have to take a few days off to nurse my ear ache. See you all in a week’s time.

 
Take care and Happy Writing!
Åsa

 


Starting from scratch once more (Semi-finalist in UKSC 2016)

Two empty chairs by a table,
forced them together one day.
A busy lounge at an airport,
connected them straight away.

He had a ring on his finger,
a set life to live somewhere.
She had a bag full of nothing,
and wanted to feel and share.

Chorus
As soon as their eyes met they knew,
they’d found a soulmate out of the blue.
It felt like they’d met before,
had so much they wanted to explore.
But he was soon leaving for Rome,
then returning for duties back home.
She was heading to Singapore,
where she was starting from scratch once more.
Now feeling anything but sure,
she was starting from scratch once more.

One more gin and they were leaving.
Didn’t share email or phone.
Both wondering as they were parting,
how they could feel so alone.

Doing the “right thing” as people,
knowing deep down it was wrong.
Wanting to follow their instinct,
the feeling that they belong.

Chorus
As soon as their eyes met they knew,
they’d found a soulmate out of the blue.
It felt like they’d met before,
had so much they wanted to explore.
But he was soon leaving for Rome,
then returning for duties back home.
She was heading to Singapore,
where she was starting from scratch once more.
Now feeling anything but sure,
she was starting from scratch once more.
©2016 Åsa Sandberg

 

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